extreme depression.

"Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash

You tossed it in the trash, you did

To give me all your love

Is all I ever asked

Cause what you don't understand

Is

I'd catch a grenade for you 

Throw my hand on a blade for you 

I'd jump in front of a train for you 

You know I'd do anything for you 

I would go through all this pain

Take a bullet straight through my brain

Yes, I would die for you, baby

But you won't do the same"

(Grenade - Bruno Mars)